My life now.

My life now. I am here. All around, there seems to be no point of focus. Dimensions are blurred. Past, present and futur in one brush of colour. It's all so calm. I feel like I could hang around for a long time.

On the other hand... I know I must move on. The weather will change. I will need a road or at least some point of reference or interest to continue my travels. 

All around, there seems to be no point of focus. 

And though I feel fine.

I know it won't do for long. 

That I will soon again want direction.

I will search for depth. 

And crave for more colour.

An urge for structure will surface.

For now, I float through each day. Rather pointlessly. 

Knowing very well that the longer I stay here, the harder it will be to leave.

Ship at sea... Empty dock... Depends how you look at it.

It is actually both. Ship at sea AND empty dock.
Last post... May 2011. Let's catch up.
June was probably, as usual, a hectic month at work. Not worth mentioning.
Love-hate relationship with that job.
July was vacation.
August, my eldest moved out.


September, and October were crappy months at work - trying to make things different and getting nowhere. But coaching helping me see MYSELF differently and going somewhere for sure.


November was new job month ! Found a wonderful place where my qualifications are needed and appreciated. Great pay. Great team. Great job. Environmental activism. Fits me just fine !


December was for still breaking into the new work and planning a move. Office is an hour's drive from home.


January 2012 my youngest and last moved out. EMPTY NEST. 
Found a wonderful house for rent in small town where my job is.
Sublet my appartement this week.


Move to a small town planned for end of March.


New period in my life I've felt creeping up... has now arrived.
On my own again. 
Feel like I have to learn how to live all over.


I've been using my job as crutch. 
Leaning on it to fill all the empty holes in my life with.
Need to find some sort balance. Will work on that later.... ''SIGH''


For now, I plan on using the move as an excuse to lighten my load. 
Going to get rid of much crap I've been dragging around for years.