I am a loner. I feel just fine alone. I like the company of others but being alone is not really a problem... until I try to ''fix'' it. Once in a while, something or someone convinces me that it's wrong - or not normal - for me to be alone. Then I start looking for that ''someone'' to fill the void I'm supposed to feel. Then I get lonely. The solitude hurts where it didn't hurt before. Then I feel the void. Then I feel not normal. Then I wonder why I am alone. I wonder what's wrong with me ?
But...
Question for all those who are alone. Is being single necessarily a sign of something wrong ? Something to fix ? What if I am happy alone ? Does that make me abnormal ? Of course I sometimes miss companionship and sharing and tenderness. But it doesn't really hurt if I don't dwell on it. Am I simply avoiding a problem ?
I've been in a relationships before. Some lasted many years. Years during which I often longed for my solitude.
That's all. Just a few surfacing bubbles tonight after a short evening at a singles' event in a bar in town. Felt out of place. Wanted to leave as soon as I got there.
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